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04-12-2004, 03:12 PM | #1 |
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I found this on the net, appearently Courtney Love wote it about Kurt's death, all i'll say is NUTCASE I don't know what to say. I feel the same way you guys do. If you guys don't think... to sit in this room where he played guitar and sang, and feel so honored to be near him, you're crazy... Anyway, he left a note, it's more like a letter to the f**king editor. I don't know what happened. I mean it was gonna happen, but it could've happened when he was 40. He always said he was gonna outlive everybody and be a hundred and twenty. I'm not gonna read you all the note 'cause it's none of the rest of your f**king business. But some of it is to you. I don't really think it takes away his dignity to read this considering that it's addressed to most of you. He's such an asshole. I want you all to say 'asshole' really loud. "This note should be pretty easy to understand. All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years since my first introduction to the shall we say, ethics involved with independence and embracement of your community, it's proven to be very true. "I haven't felt the excitment of listening to as well as creating music, along with really writing something, for too many years now. "I feel guilty beyond words about these things -- for example, when we're backstage and the light go out and the roar of the crowd begins, it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love and relish the love and adoration of the crowd." Well, Kurt, so f**king what -- then don't be a rock star you asshole. "Which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact that I can't fool you, any one of you, it simply isn't fair to you or to me. The worst crime I could think of would be to pull people off by faking it, pretending as if I'm having 100% fun" Well Kurt, the worst crime I can think of is for you to just continue being a rock star when you f**king hate it, just f**king stop. "Sometimes I feel as I should have a punch-in time-clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it, and I do, God believe me I do, but it's not enough. I appreciate the fact that I and we have effected and entertained a lot of people. I must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're alone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm I once had as a child. On our last 3 tours I've had a much better appreciation of all the people I know personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can't get out the frustration to gather the empathy I have for everybody. There's good in all of us and I simply love people too much." So why didn't you just f**king stay? "So much that it makes me feel just too f**king sad. Sad little sensative unappreciative Pieces --" Jesus man oh shut up.. bastard Why didn't you just enjoy it? I don't know. Then he goes on to say personal things to me that are none of your damn business; personal things to Frances that are none of your damn business. "I had a good marriage, and for that I'm grateful. But since the age of seven, I've become hateful toward all humans in general only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy." Empathy? "Only because I love and feel for people too much I guess Thank you all from the pit of my burning nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the last years. I'm pretty much of an erratic moody person and I don't have the passion anymore. Peace, Love, Empathy, Kurt Cobain." And there is some more personal things that is none of your damn business. And just remember: this is all bullsh*t... And I'm laying in our bed, and I'm really sorry. And I feel the same way you do. I'm really sorry you guys. I don't know what I could have done. I wish I'd been here. I wish I hadn't listened to other people, but I did. Every night I've been sleeping with his mother, and I wake up in the morning and think it's him because his body's sort of the same. I have to go know. -- Courtney Love
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04-12-2004, 03:15 PM | #2 |
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I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what i used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become. And she said that after he said this about her!??
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04-12-2004, 03:20 PM | #3 |
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Actually, she didn't write this....she recorded it and it was played at a vigil in Seattle after Kurt's death. Give her a break. Her husband had just offed himself in their home. You'd be hysterical, too. She was obviously shouting and crying while she said all this. I'm sure you can find the recording somewhere.
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04-13-2004, 10:18 AM | #4 |
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i dont believe any of it
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04-13-2004, 03:41 PM | #5 |
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any of what?
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04-13-2004, 03:44 PM | #6 |
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hi Valerie [img]smileys/smiley1.gif[/img]
dont mind me i just dont like Courtney Love, ive no doubt she said all of the above but i dont believe a lot of it, but thats just my opinion [img]smileys/smiley1.gif[/img]
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04-13-2004, 04:29 PM | #7 |
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Sounds like the typical reaction of someone whose spouse\close friend\family member has just commited suicide i.e. pretty reasonable. I would imagine suicide is one of the hardest things to get over what with all the not knowing and questions n stuff.
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04-13-2004, 07:33 PM | #8 |
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Hey Marina [img]smileys/smiley1.gif[/img] No worries...I just didn't know what you were talking about [img]smileys/smiley1.gif[/img] I love Courtney Love in the same way I love watching those plastic surgery shows...it's all gore and pain and stupidity, but some reasoning is also involved...it's just hard to say where. I just dig her, even if she's nuts sometimes. I remember hearing Courtney say the things that were in the first post of this thread. They played it on MTV. She was reading the suicide note to the fans. She was really upset. Whether she was actually reading the note I don't know because I've never seen it. There's a new conspiracy theory book out now about Kurt and Courtney called Love & Death. I don't believe in the conspiracy theories, but it makes for a more interesting read. |
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