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Libby · 01-28-2005, 05:40 PM

Hendrik, I am so sorry you are feeling this way. I so much want you to be happy, you have everything going for you. You have the brightest smile and the most sparkly eyes,so I didn't know just how bad you were feeling. You are a fantastic person, thoroughly interesting, intelligent, fun, and a great conversationalist.

You have NOTHING to be ashamed of being on anti-d's, and you have had such a rough time with your Dad. I found this which says it will take a few weeks for them to start working...

http://www.healthandage.com/Home/gm=20!gid7=101

I've told you I am here for you and I meant it. You can call me any time and I'll be here to listen. I'll post over my spare mobile this week so at least you can text me as well.

You have so may friends in the igloo and we are all here for you.

Hannah650 · 01-28-2005, 07:22 PM

Hendrik, i too believe that it can only be a matter of time and will before you are happy. You do deserve to be so much, and at the minute things may not be good, but if this medication worked for Rosey and for others, there is absolutely no doubt why it shouldnt work for you too. I am saddened by your post though, but as Libby said every single person here cares for you, and is a friend if ever u need to get something off your chest.

I only wish i could say something of some use to u, something constructive but im not so good at this so instead ill say a prayer for u, maybe that will be of some help.Edited by: Hannah650

Miss Pink · 01-28-2005, 10:27 PM

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i loves u henny

Hendrik · 03-21-2005, 03:29 PM

Thanks again for the lovely messages.

I'm gonna be alone in the house during the easter time, isn't that nice, everyone else is going home for a couple of days...f*ck. So if anyone of the eskimos wants to come to Dudley / Netherton, the house is almost empty (except for filthy orgies).

Uno- X · 03-21-2005, 03:30 PM

no orgies? well then Unster isnt comin....*pouts* ah henders *cuddle*

cille · 03-21-2005, 03:45 PM

hendrik hendrik hendrik! *hug*
did you read my message in the favourite eskimo-thread? hope you did.
Love, c.

SisterMidnight · 03-22-2005, 03:22 AM

maybe this isn't the right place but i saw this on the news last night and i immediately thought of you hendrik and i have no other way to get ahold of you... when you said prozac i cringed because i used to work on a suicide hotline and we had posters up telling us to check if suicidal callers were on prozac because of the increased risk of suicidal behavior, and that was thirteen years ago!

but now the fda has put a black box warning (the most serious warning label the FDA has) on all SSRI class anti-depressants (zoloft, prozac, paxil, celexa and luvox) because of the serious effects they have especially on adolescents and young adults. right now in the u.s. theres a public outcry because there have been murders and increased suicides by young people on these drugs and the warnings are still not on the medications!! and doctors are still prescribing them!! i'm sorry but this makes me so angry!!! (who knows if this news had made it's way to europe yet)

hendrik you need better follow up and closer monitoring from your doctor right now. don't stop taking the medication because that can make things worse but DO get back into your doctor AS SOON AS POSSIBLE meaning NOW and tell them that you're still not feeling any better and give them this information from the FDA. ask about the other anti-depressants available (wellbutrin, remeron, effexor and serzone) and tell them you need more intensive counseling not just once a month or whenever they can fit you into their schedule!

http://www.fda.gov/bbs/topics/news/2004/NEW01124.html

Hendrik · 03-22-2005, 02:57 PM

@cille:

Yes, I've read it, danke, habe mich gefreut!

Thank you very much, Melissa. I knew that there was a reason that I felt upset about taking f*cking medication in the first place...

Although I know that it would get worse again when I would stop takin the pills. I take "Fluoxetine", which is generally considered as 'prozac'. One each day.

Like I said in another thread: I'm still doing everything which is in my power. Tomorrow is my very first weekly appointment with a female counseler (arranged by my GP, cos the he couldn't arrange anything with that psychatrist, cos he's goin to retire later this month). Of course my GP knows that I'm still not alright. That's why we're still lookin for possibilities to make a change.

At the moment, I'm feeling even more crappy. Since Thursday I'm feelin dizzy very often. My eyes hurt, I can't focus properly anymore. Maybe the mixture of prozac and too much alcohol (guinness, irish whiskey) on Paddy's day was no good for me (although i wasn't pissed, just merry). It didn't say anything in the package sheet though. Or maybe it's just that my body takes revenge for the sleep deficit (I have a sleep problem, sometimes I wake up too early, the doc said it's the anxiety). Which affects the whole day/life of course (it's an endless circle, argh). Or maybe it's just me being a paranoid again. Well, I find out...I'm goin to see the doc this evening anyway.

Livo · 03-22-2005, 03:28 PM

best of luck, hendrik, we're always here if you need to talk.

jenn fox · 03-22-2005, 10:05 PM

Good luck Hendrik, you'll get there, and we're here for you in the meantime. There's always an eskimo.

Hendrik · 04-02-2005, 09:03 AM

Thank you.

I dunno why, but I had another breakdown (cryin and stuff) yesterday again. It seems as if i have to let it out from time to time. As if all the **** needs to be released after a while. Although I enjoyed the two sessions with my counseler really much til now. She encouraged me and tells me how brave I am.

Bloody patience. The only enemy.

Hendrik · 04-02-2005, 09:12 AM

I'll be in Hertfordshire, in the youth hostel in Cheshunt from upcoming Monday (4th) til Thursday. So if anyone is bored, you know what to do...

Me and my flatmates are going to see Bolton versus Villa on April 23th. I'm lookin forward to that.

My best wishes and love for all the eskimo friends.

cille · 04-02-2005, 03:33 PM

i think maybe such break-downs are part of growing up. especially for someone in your situation.

Enoch · 04-04-2005, 09:13 PM

Henny, dry your eyes and stop acting like a little girl !! Come to Scotland, drink whiskey, grow some balls and wear a skirt for fun! my little wienersnitzel!

Hendrik · 06-18-2005, 03:35 PM

Enoch, I AM a girl, didn't you know that?

Does anyone know where to buy flaxseed (oil) or spirulina/seaweeds? I'm just trying to get off my prozac pills and are lookin for a natural alternative...couldn't find it in Merry Hill (Asda etc.) though, grrr.

Oh, and counselling sessions are helpin, yeah, thank, errr buddha...

PS: Hey Libby, hope you is well.

SisterMidnight · 06-21-2005, 04:42 AM

hendrik-

first off don't go off your prozac without medication monitoring from your doctor that can be dangerous.. you have to decrease the dosage gradually so be careful with that

second i don't know where you get herbal remedies in the uk but usually most health food stores have them here. some that might be helpful for depression are valerian root, ginseng, damiana and especially st. john's wort. vitamin supplements (the b complex esp.) and minerals like postassium, calcium and iron may help also. there are other natural things you can try like this...

The following list includes the tools that are most commonly used to stay well and help relieve symptoms:

Talk to a friend – many people find this to be really helpful
Talk to a health care professional
Peer counseling or exchange listening
Focusing exercises
Relaxation and stress reduction exercises
Guided imagery
Journaling – writing in a notebook
Creative affirming activities
Exercise
Diet considerations
Light through your eyes
Extra rest
Take time off from home or work responsibilities
Hot packs or cold packs
Take medications, vitamins, minerals, herbal supplements
Attend a support group
See your counselor
Do something "normal" like washing your hair, shaving or going to work
Get a medication check
Get a second opinion
Call a warm or hot line
Surround yourself with people who are positive, affirming and loving
Wear something that makes you feel good
Look through old pictures, scrapbooks and photo albums
Make a list of your accomplishments
Spend ten minutes writing down everything good you can think of about yourself
Do something that makes you laugh
Do something special for someone else
Get some little things done
Repeat positive affirmations
Focus on and appreciate what is happening right now
Take a warm bath
Listen to music, make music or sing

this is a list i found online but it includes most of the recommended coping methods (some of them are kind of 'stuart smalley' but still they work for a lot of people) basically do whatever comforts you and makes you feel better... which i hope you do soon

Hendrik · 06-21-2005, 09:22 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by SisterMidnight

hendrik-

first off don't go off your prozac without medication monitoring from your doctor that can be dangerous.. you have to decrease the dosage gradually so be careful with that

But Sissy, don't you worry, everything has been already discussed with the doc.

Today is the last day with a prozac pill (i started last week to take a pill only every second day, instead of every day, like the doc suggested). Yay.

And thanks.

cille · 06-21-2005, 09:24 AM

so you didn't like being on them?

Hendrik · 06-21-2005, 09:28 AM

I did, darling, and it has helped a lot, but the side effects (like annoying sleep issues which affects your day as well) are gettin' on me tits.

And there would've been a point in the future anyway where i would've asked myself when to stop. And summer is the best time, I think (hence the sun etc.). So I just gave it a go cos it felt right inside, too.

Gosh, I sound like I know a lot.

01-28-2005, 07:22 PM	#32
Hannah650 Wee Wils Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: Edinburgh, yay!!:) Posts: 1,584	Hendrik, i too believe that it can only be a matter of time and will before you are happy. You do deserve to be so much, and at the minute things may not be good, but if this medication worked for Rosey and for others, there is absolutely no doubt why it shouldnt work for you too. I am saddened by your post though, but as Libby said every single person here cares for you, and is a friend if ever u need to get something off your chest. I only wish i could say something of some use to u, something constructive but im not so good at this so instead ill say a prayer for u, maybe that will be of some help.Edited by: Hannah650 __________________ Friends are the people who bring out the beautiful things in you that no-one else looks hard enough to find

01-28-2005, 10:27 PM	#33
Miss Pink Eskimo Regular Join Date: Mar 2004 Posts: 5,327	[img]smileys/smiley31.gif[/img] i loves u henny __________________ We don't crave what hurts... we hurt when we hope for something and it turns out to not be what we wanted...the pain is often our hope breaking... not our hearts.

03-21-2005, 03:29 PM	#34
Hendrik Teddy Daniels Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Berlin Posts: 9,693	Thanks again for the lovely messages. I'm gonna be alone in the house during the easter time, isn't that nice, everyone else is going home for a couple of days...fck. So if anyone of the eskimos wants to come to Dudley / Netherton, the house is almost empty (except for filthy orgies). Last edited by Hendrik; 03-21-2005 at 03:32 PM.*

03-21-2005, 03:30 PM	#35
Uno- X Eskimo CSI Join Date: Oct 2002 Posts: 14,495	no orgies? well then Unster isnt comin....pouts ah henders cuddle __________________ Do you realize that you have the most beautiful face? Do you realize we're floating in space?

03-21-2005, 03:45 PM	#36
cille creepycute Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: Copenhagen Posts: 15,333	hendrik hendrik hendrik! hug did you read my message in the favourite eskimo-thread? hope you did. Love, c. __________________ Yeah

01-28-2005, 05:40 PM	#31
Libby Eskimo Regular Join Date: May 2004 Location: England/New Zealand Posts: 640	Hendrik, I am so sorry you are feeling this way. I so much want you to be happy, you have everything going for you. You have the brightest smile and the most sparkly eyes,so I didn't know just how bad you were feeling. You are a fantastic person, thoroughly interesting, intelligent, fun, and a great conversationalist. You have NOTHING to be ashamed of being on anti-d's, and you have had such a rough time with your Dad. I found this which says it will take a few weeks for them to start working... http://www.healthandage.com/Home/gm=20!gid7=101 I've told you I am here for you and I meant it. You can call me any time and I'll be here to listen. I'll post over my spare mobile this week so at least you can text me as well. You have so may friends in the igloo and we are all here for you.

03-22-2005, 03:22 AM	#37
SisterMidnight Jellyfishsting Join Date: Mar 2004 Location: Is this heaven? Posts: 5,500	maybe this isn't the right place but i saw this on the news last night and i immediately thought of you hendrik and i have no other way to get ahold of you... when you said prozac i cringed because i used to work on a suicide hotline and we had posters up telling us to check if suicidal callers were on prozac because of the increased risk of suicidal behavior, and that was thirteen years ago! but now the fda has put a black box warning (the most serious warning label the FDA has) on all SSRI class anti-depressants (zoloft, prozac, paxil, celexa and luvox) because of the serious effects they have especially on adolescents and young adults. right now in the u.s. theres a public outcry because there have been murders and increased suicides by young people on these drugs and the warnings are still not on the medications!! and doctors are still prescribing them!! i'm sorry but this makes me so angry!!! (who knows if this news had made it's way to europe yet) hendrik you need better follow up and closer monitoring from your doctor right now. don't stop taking the medication because that can make things worse but DO get back into your doctor AS SOON AS POSSIBLE meaning NOW and tell them that you're still not feeling any better and give them this information from the FDA. ask about the other anti-depressants available (wellbutrin, remeron, effexor and serzone) and tell them you need more intensive counseling not just once a month or whenever they can fit you into their schedule! http://www.fda.gov/bbs/topics/news/2004/NEW01124.html

03-22-2005, 02:57 PM	#38
Hendrik Teddy Daniels Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Berlin Posts: 9,693	@cille: Yes, I've read it, danke, habe mich gefreut! Thank you very much, Melissa. I knew that there was a reason that I felt upset about taking f*cking medication in the first place... Although I know that it would get worse again when I would stop takin the pills. I take "Fluoxetine", which is generally considered as 'prozac'. One each day. Like I said in another thread: I'm still doing everything which is in my power. Tomorrow is my very first weekly appointment with a female counseler (arranged by my GP, cos the he couldn't arrange anything with that psychatrist, cos he's goin to retire later this month). Of course my GP knows that I'm still not alright. That's why we're still lookin for possibilities to make a change. At the moment, I'm feeling even more crappy. Since Thursday I'm feelin dizzy very often. My eyes hurt, I can't focus properly anymore. Maybe the mixture of prozac and too much alcohol (guinness, irish whiskey) on Paddy's day was no good for me (although i wasn't pissed, just merry). It didn't say anything in the package sheet though. Or maybe it's just that my body takes revenge for the sleep deficit (I have a sleep problem, sometimes I wake up too early, the doc said it's the anxiety). Which affects the whole day/life of course (it's an endless circle, argh). Or maybe it's just me being a paranoid again. Well, I find out...I'm goin to see the doc this evening anyway.

03-22-2005, 03:28 PM	#39
Livo Eskimo Frames Expert Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: People's Republic of Cork Posts: 2,559	best of luck, hendrik, we're always here if you need to talk. __________________ trying to find a little chaos in the order..

03-22-2005, 10:05 PM	#40
jenn fox Eskimo Regular Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: United States Posts: 2,064	Good luck Hendrik, you'll get there, and we're here for you in the meantime. There's always an eskimo. __________________ if I knew all the words, I'd write myself out of here.

04-02-2005, 09:03 AM	#41
Hendrik Teddy Daniels Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Berlin Posts: 9,693	Thank you. I dunno why, but I had another breakdown (cryin and stuff) yesterday again. It seems as if i have to let it out from time to time. As if all the **** needs to be released after a while. Although I enjoyed the two sessions with my counseler really much til now. She encouraged me and tells me how brave I am. Bloody patience. The only enemy.

04-02-2005, 09:12 AM	#42
Hendrik Teddy Daniels Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Berlin Posts: 9,693	I'll be in Hertfordshire, in the youth hostel in Cheshunt from upcoming Monday (4th) til Thursday. So if anyone is bored, you know what to do... Me and my flatmates are going to see Bolton versus Villa on April 23th. I'm lookin forward to that. My best wishes and love for all the eskimo friends.

04-02-2005, 03:33 PM	#43
cille creepycute Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: Copenhagen Posts: 15,333	i think maybe such break-downs are part of growing up. especially for someone in your situation. __________________ Yeah

04-04-2005, 09:13 PM	#44
Enoch Eskimo Regular Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: Scotland Posts: 1,698	Henny, dry your eyes and stop acting like a little girl !! Come to Scotland, drink whiskey, grow some balls and wear a skirt for fun! my little wienersnitzel! __________________ Hold me down, hoping that you can explain, little arithmetics, got me down ..

06-18-2005, 03:35 PM	#45
Hendrik Teddy Daniels Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Berlin Posts: 9,693	Enoch, I AM a girl, didn't you know that? Does anyone know where to buy flaxseed (oil) or spirulina/seaweeds? I'm just trying to get off my prozac pills and are lookin for a natural alternative...couldn't find it in Merry Hill (Asda etc.) though, grrr. Oh, and counselling sessions are helpin, yeah, thank, errr buddha... PS: Hey Libby, hope you is well. Last edited by Hendrik; 06-18-2005 at 03:39 PM.

06-21-2005, 04:42 AM	#46
SisterMidnight Jellyfishsting Join Date: Mar 2004 Location: Is this heaven? Posts: 5,500	hendrik- first off don't go off your prozac without medication monitoring from your doctor that can be dangerous.. you have to decrease the dosage gradually so be careful with that second i don't know where you get herbal remedies in the uk but usually most health food stores have them here. some that might be helpful for depression are valerian root, ginseng, damiana and especially st. john's wort. vitamin supplements (the b complex esp.) and minerals like postassium, calcium and iron may help also. there are other natural things you can try like this... The following list includes the tools that are most commonly used to stay well and help relieve symptoms: Talk to a friend – many people find this to be really helpful Talk to a health care professional Peer counseling or exchange listening Focusing exercises Relaxation and stress reduction exercises Guided imagery Journaling – writing in a notebook Creative affirming activities Exercise Diet considerations Light through your eyes Extra rest Take time off from home or work responsibilities Hot packs or cold packs Take medications, vitamins, minerals, herbal supplements Attend a support group See your counselor Do something "normal" like washing your hair, shaving or going to work Get a medication check Get a second opinion Call a warm or hot line Surround yourself with people who are positive, affirming and loving Wear something that makes you feel good Look through old pictures, scrapbooks and photo albums Make a list of your accomplishments Spend ten minutes writing down everything good you can think of about yourself Do something that makes you laugh Do something special for someone else Get some little things done Repeat positive affirmations Focus on and appreciate what is happening right now Take a warm bath Listen to music, make music or sing this is a list i found online but it includes most of the recommended coping methods (some of them are kind of 'stuart smalley' but still they work for a lot of people) basically do whatever comforts you and makes you feel better... which i hope you do soon

06-21-2005, 09:24 AM	#48
cille creepycute Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: Copenhagen Posts: 15,333	so you didn't like being on them? __________________ Yeah

06-21-2005, 09:28 AM	#49
Hendrik Teddy Daniels Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Berlin Posts: 9,693	I did, darling, and it has helped a lot, but the side effects (like annoying sleep issues which affects your day as well) are gettin' on me tits. And there would've been a point in the future anyway where i would've asked myself when to stop. And summer is the best time, I think (hence the sun etc.). So I just gave it a go cos it felt right inside, too. Gosh, I sound like I know a lot.